| DREAMING MACHINES ~ Acrylic on
gessoed panel 11" x 14", (27.9 cm x 35.6 cm.),Completed
May, 2008
The most recent painting in my series of paintings concerning the
"reality" of dreams.
I spend a lot of time
dreaming. Any time I can, I dream. As a child I was scolded for
"dreaming". So, this made me want to dream even more!
Most of the time, I prefer my dreams to the waking world. But not
the nightmares!
I often think that
dreams may be the gateway to another world. Perhaps a parallel world
just as important as the waking world which we call "reality"?
When one dies does
he go into a dream from which he never awakens? Perhaps dreams foreshadow
death? Have we all not thought this? Not a very scientific theory
however. The brain activity that goes on during dreaming, ceases
all together at death.
On the other hand,
if brain activity is electricity, perhaps this activity moves on
after the body machine runs down? Is electricity energy? Is energy
immortal? Is this electrical energy in us, the current that travels
via synapse junctions in the brain from one neuron to the next,
the undying energy of a "soul"? … But I digress
… I am speaking now of dreams, not of souls.
A dream is the only
alternative reality that all people visit. From Junkies to Presidents,
we all travel to this other world, twisted and strange as it is.
Human beings are indeed
"DREAMING MACHINES", (and hence my title for this painting)
My painting shows representations
of what it is to dream, and what it is to be in a dream. This is
just "remembering" my dreams. Dream remembrance is not
at all accurate. Somewhere on the way back from the dream, On the
"bridge" from our dream back to reality, we lose most
of the details. Like a man trying to carry an armload of tiny twigs
on a windy day, most of them blow away by the time we get back.
Trying to recall and
paint the remnants excites me. It brings me closer to my dreams.
However, it's difficult because almost all my twigs are gone!
Dreaming is seeing,
being and existing within, and without, worlds merging known and
unknown.
Painting is very much
like dreaming. I must seek to find my dreams because they are my
models!
Dreaming is feeling
and seeing things only possible in dreams. In dreams we experience
things which are beyond our waking imaginations.
In dreams we mix fragments
from our past with an assortment of possible futures.
In our dreams we stir
a "psycho-stew" of things that are, can be, may be, and
never will ever be.
In dreams we see our
"real' worlds, warped and molded by abstract ideas and notions
we never "dreamed" we had. ;)
In dreams there are
structures, both logical and ludicrous. Cities that stretch further
than the eye can see. Places I've been and never been. Rivers, Lakes
and Oceans. Wide open spaces and small dank claustrophobic spaces
that can be a prison or an endless maze.
In dreams there be
Monsters!
We call all this "The
stuff of dreams". Does it come from within us, or somewhere
else?
Dreams are both metaphor
and analogy ... and neither. Dreams make no sense, and yet can be
important revelations!
In this painting, a
woman's mind explodes with dreams. Dreams float away like bubbles
that escape into a vast and endless expanse.
Behind her, nightmares
are entombed in an ancient wall of dark fears.
In my dreams I often
can not speak, so my mouth is covered.
My dream world is endless.
It rocks like a cradle on a silky sea, filled with visions of fish.
I see my dreams through many eyes, and many lenses, (Like the many
lenses I use when I paint.)
We have dreams of sexuality
so bizarre they are unspeakable. We all have our secret dreams.
Dreams that we will never tell. We will take these dreams with us
to that final dream … or that final nothing.
To think that all the
people who have ever lived have had hundreds of dreams! Each dream
is unique. How many dream worlds have been dreamt of? And how many
more dreams shall we have?
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